Fear - it's not an emotion I enjoy.
This morning I walked into my office past a known spider web that now has a larger spider than it started with. I don't think it's the same spider that built the web. Headline: "Spider Home Invasions on the Rise". But that didn't scare me (today - it did when I saw it last week). I walked into the office and saw another large spider creeping along the wall. Can't step on the bad-boy because it might just be a bad-mama-jama with babies on her back then they'd just get all over my shoe and I'd have a holy hissy right here in church in front of God and ev'rybody and that just wouldn't be right. Presbyterians don't look too highly on holy hissy fits. I just calmly made sure he/she wasn't moving faster than I was, put my junk down and headed for the wasp killer foam figuring if it could kill an evil wasp it could kill an equally evil spider. And it did.
Next...
I was sitting at my desk, minding my own business, doing my work on my sweet iMac when all of a sudden a pain went through my heart and a loud pop pierced my ear drums - I just knew I'd been shot dead. That, or the light bulb in my desk lamp blew. Yeah, it was the light bulb. But God knows it coulda been those thugs down the street in a drive-by Presbo shoot out! You never know!
Next...
Now here's the real fear - the one that's at the top of the list right now anyway. I have to speak at our Women's Connection meeting next Thursday evening. Which means I have to stand up, in front of people, open my mouth, and make sensible words come out of it that motivate them to do something. I have to put my thoughts in order, not talk too fast or too much or ramble. Can't I just write something, print it out in a cool font with pretty picture, print it on a tri-fold brochure and hand it out? That's much more my style....
Fear - I don't like it. Funny though, I just looked it up. As a noun, fear is an "unpleasant emotion caused by the BELIEF that someone of something is dangerous or likely to cause pain. Doesn't mean it actually IS dangerous or going to cause you pain.
But it might... and therein lies the proverbial rub.
